current mood: crushed
jan. 1 - went to tagaytay. freezing cold, loved it. wore my crime-fighting(TM) jacket!
jan. 4 - first day of work for 2010. still had the vacation hangover.
jan. 6 - i found out my teammate and i were declared redundant in the organizational chart so we both had to be laid off.
jan. 11 - my last week of work before my terminal leave starts. general sadness all around.
jan. 12 - a guy from this company i sent my resume to calls up. set a meeting for next tuesday.
jan. 13 - sent my endorsement email to the people i usually work with. shocked and sad replies all around.
and we come to today. it's my last thursday here at work. most of you know i despise thursdays because of the coding scheme for the traffic. thursdays mean i wake up extra early and leave the office extra late.
but i guess somehow, it doesn't matter anymore what day it is. the cold, hard fact of me having to leave feels more and more real. people offer sympathy, but it feels empty somehow.
i'm not afraid of losing my job. i know i can find a new one. it's just that this job gave me a lot of firsts to experience. the whole vibe of the company changed with the merger that happened, and i miss the company i got into. that company is gone now. the work has been a bit harder and oftentimes it feels cheerless and thankless. for all the hard work my team and i put into communicating the integration process, two of us were given the boot and my team was dissolved.
i'll miss the people i've worked with the most. i'm not ashamed to call them friends. and for such a big company, politics and bickering were virtually non-existent. i really love that fact.
so tomorrow is my last friday at work. i'm really looking forward to spending my terminal leave as a vacation of sorts.
after feb. 5, i'm officially out of the company. i'll have to start my career again. i hope the next company i get into will be able to provide me with job security.
time to sort and shred my papers and start doing my exit clearance. i never had any problems resigning before. it's just now, things are different.
i hate being sad.